This week the underlying question has been, What do I want? I have one debt that is very much concerning me, I have somebody that will be arriving in March whom I have never seen, my step-brother has a music studio, which I have recently been made aware of, and my brothers relationship is on the rocks if not already dead.

      I don't know is this says anything about men, or of myself, but today I read a brief porton of a long article that said that there is 44% less males in college. I would say, "Hurray!" because now men in college have more of a choice of women, but the reality is that it is sad. Whether it be for economical reasons or whatever it is sad. Why is it that females from their first steps seem more hungry about life than males? It is just a shame! and embarassing.

      During this week I have figured out what I do want though. I want to start my own company that provides internet access, designs webpages, repairs/builds computers, teaches repair/building of computers, and teaches computer applications and general computer topics. My goal is a little ambitious in the only sense that I want it yesterday. As far as financial goals go this is what I want.

      As far as my March meeting I wish that I could say something more positive, but the reality is that I wanted sex. Though it doesn't strictly fall on my March meeting, but it seems every day since i lost my virginity I have wanted sex like nobodies business. Though I can say that I understand and am working towards having a deep, intimate, intense, loving companionship with some female, which will hopefully end up being my wife (not to be confused with wifee). It is hard to find what I want in this aspect of my life, and I do not expect somebody to meet all the requirements, but I have made a list to make it simpler: LIST.

      I guess I will have to end on that note because there are still things that I need to think about, and don't want to write anything down that I have not put some thought into.